Elusive happiness

Decision to make, things to worry, the possibility of heart break and fleeting happiness.

The constant fear of making the wrong decision, the inconsistencies of the mind,
the uncertain consequences and the shaky delusion that everything will be alright.
All these had been haunting me for a month!.

Disappointments and sadness had been invaded me like a creepy ghost. Sad that good people is leaving, disappointed that lies & pretense had been dispensed at such ease from a trusted friend and from other creepy individuals as well, sad that I have not go further for my desired career path and disappointed that my planned holidays to Bali had to be scraped.

Is happiness that elusive?.